Amanda's First Week Blog

Has anyone ever really sat down and put a name to their fear? I mean a specific, to the point name…….Anyone? Because I can tell you that before meeting with Polly on Monday night I never gave my fear a name. What I mean by that is anyone can go around saying that they fear something but few can really put a name to the fear or give a specific example in their life of what they fear. And to most people, saying what they fear makes them feel vulnerable and let’s be honest….who really likes to feel vulnerable? This is something I am working on within myself.
 
Monday night after our meeting, I went home and finally put a name to the Fear. It’s not as easy as it sounds….But after some thought I picked “Unqualified,” because if you remember on the last episode I said that my biggest Fear was to not live up to my full potential. I also talked a lot about the “What if this?” “What if that?” The Self-Doubt. But WHY did I feel like this? What was my Fear Factor? Then I discovered that my fear of being Unqualified in life stops me from reaching my full potential and most likely helps create the Self-Doubt that I have. It was really an eye opening moment for me that I was not expecting to have. I was also not expecting to feel as much comfort as I currently do. I know things do not change overnight, it is going to take time to sort through all of the boxes of files I have in my head. But I am very pleased that I have at least identified one of the Fear Factors in my life. I am so ready to break free from these Worries and start living life to the fullest.
 
P.S. I have some exciting challenges that Polly has given me and I am REALLY excited to blog about them! So stay tuned J

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