Heather Week 5 Blog

This week has been a challenging one, the subtle tendrils of despair making their appearance like the delicate buds of Spring at long last giving way to the blooms of flowers in New Hampshire. It was Kahlil Gibran in " The Prophet," who wrote, "
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."

Indeed as I have worked on this week's Positive Principle : What is Your Story, I have experienced both the sorrow and joy of identifying the tales I have told myself most of my life. Yes, there a few stories that have served me, but a multitude that have not, the scale off balanced by deep seeded beliefs echoing self loathing.

Working with Max this week has been powerful. To actually write down the beliefs about myself has made me all the more aware of their impact, positive or negative. In order to heal from anything that no longer serves, it must first be acknowledged, it must reach the surface in order for it to be transformed.

I have for so long imbibed the poison of my own thoughts. In the past I have truly believed I am worthless, a failure, better off not evening being here. In the past I have given away my voice, my power, to stories that have imprisoned me. No more. No more! I don't care if I have to stop myself 9000 times a day, I am committed to reframing my beliefs, to changing my story, to embracing the power of the present moment. Sorrow has carved in me enough of a vessel to contain joy. It is a process. It is a delicate dance. There is no arriving at some pinnacle and blissing out forever. No, this path is a work in progress, it's seizing the day and transforming my long held thoughts about myself. It is giving all I have to this journey, one story at a time.