This weeks principle is BEING!

Websters definition:

noun be·ing \ˈbē(-i)ŋ\

1: a living thing
2: the state of existing
3: the most important or basic part of a person's mind or self


This week has been another week of big growth for me practicing all the principles I have learned thus far. I have continued to practice daily PEACE even with everything still a little crazy around me. The result of practicing peace moment by moment has been far more rewarding than I could have ever expected.



First, It has greatly impacted my work. Normally my job usually has me distracted, left me completely drained, void of any energy at the end of the day and my performance and accuracy have been suffering. Both have improved and thanks to practicing peace I still have life at the end of the day and no longer feel void of energy. Second, while I am still dealing with the normal everyday issues of raising a teenage son, with practicing peace I no longer feel like I have to fix everything at every movement and I can take each issue and deal with them one at a time. And lastly, my mother has been in hospital and just had surgery yesterday. It has been a bit difficult getting updates on her condition as she lives in another state and thanks to HIPPA laws I have been somewhat in the unknown on her condition. Again, practicing peace I have chosen to just trust and have faith that I will know what I need to know when I need to know it and whatever is going to be will be. I am happy to say she made it thru the surgery and is stable.



Now, on to this weeks principle BEINGwhich is what I also consider NOT DOING! I have really been practicing not doing when it comes to the bigger areas in my life and the areas I wish to change. First one being career. I have had ideas pass thru my head this week but have chosen to not do research, make calls, talk to anyone about it and not take any action whatsoever to move forward with any changes to my current situation . With dating and relationships I really did not want to think about that area or talk about it at all but I did have my chat this week with Tricia and it was about about dating and relationships. I have not put any effort into any major thoughts on that or pursued searching on match.com or any other dating sites. I have let myself off the hook of having any obligations of needing to do anything but really continuing to focus on PEACE and just BEING.



So what did I discover in this week of just BEING? That I have the power to choose peace in my life on a daily basis and only live in the present. That I am a really strong, confident and secure woman. That I know myself more than anyone. That I get to choose what I want in and for MY life. I learned how much I really do like and love myself. Most importantly I learned just how intuitive I AM and I need to listen to my own inner voice about everything in and about my life. I do not need to look outside myself for anything.

This week has been interesting, enlightening and challenging as I have worked on getting rid of my old stories and creating new ones. I have felt very raw emotionally this week and have had a fair amount of sadness and tears. Perhaps it is my Ego grieving the loss it is having that it is no longer going to be allowed to run my life. There is a new sheriff in town LOL! And, on a positive note this week there has also continued to be a huge shift internally towards PEACE.

I was able to string together a fair amount of days of peace but I have had a challenging week as a single mom of a teenager. He is going through a difficult time and is experiencing emotional ups and downs and has been lashing out in anger. The first major outburst I was able to maintain the peace but as the days have gone on it has been very difficult for me. It has however been an opportunity for me to practice and teach him some of the things I am learning in this journey. Lots of deep breaths, living in the moment, telling the negative stories to go away, focusing on gratitude, positive things, self -love and self-care. I hope that what I am doing for myself will teach him a better way to live too! I'm not going to lie it is exhausting work but it is what I have to do if I want my life to be a new story. I want to rid my life of all the old stories that no loner serve me and create new happy ones!

The other happenings this week have been dealing with those old stories. The biggest of the stories that continue to be a challenge are those of body image and self worth. I have been telling my EGO no thank you every time those stories rear their ugly head. I have been doing all things self-care whenever I can. I have been been thinking of positive things, but most importantly I have been practicing LIVING IN THE MOMENT and having PEACE IN THE MOMENT. I have been dreaming and creating new stories that I plan on attracting to my life.

This week if you were watching the show you would know that we switched coaches. We now have the opportunity to be coached in two different styles. Both coaches are great and have different ideas and skills to bring to the table to help us move forward in this journey and I can't say how grateful I am for this opportunity I have been given.

This weeks principle was learn and teach. Is it possible to learn and teach yourself together at the same time? I believe so!!! That is exactly what I have experienced this week. After last week and the online dating debacle I was not sure where to go from here in regards to dating and relationships. I have decided temporarily to set that aspect of my life aside for a bit and this week just focus on myself.

This week in my first coaching session with Max we discussed self love and cleaning up any underlining low vibrations surrounding self image and any lack of self love. I have had experiences in my past that have shaped my view of myself, men, dating and relationships in a very self-destructive light. I had created many stories with a lot of negative thoughts which effect me and my beliefs today. I have held onto certain perceptions and beliefs that have not served me well. I realized my EGO has been in charge and has literally tried to destroy me. Every positive good thought I have had about myself my EGO has echoed back something negative. It has been a vicious and endless battle with the EGO and I have not been able to overcome it. Obviously this has not only led to sadness, depression, disappointment and anger but more importantly it has effected my vibration and has kept me from moving forward in my life and attracting the things I want for my life. It has also robbed my of any peace and joy in my life. If you will remember these were two things I hoped to achieve in my life when I started this journey.

So what have I learned and taught myself this week? I have learned that those old stories and lies my EGO has fed my mind for many years can be erased and new stories can be created by ME– no EGO involved. I am the taskmaster of my mind, my thoughts and my actions. I learned that every time my EGO starts to put a thought in my head that is not in alignment with LOVE not to fight it or push against it but to just say “Thanks for sharing, I am going to love myself anyway.” And, I am going to remind myself that “ I love myself and I love my life” I learned that I can take every thought captive. I learned that life is only about living in the moment and I can create PEACE and HEAVEN in that moment by redirecting to LOVE. And in that present moment of PEACE and HEAVEN I am creating the many moments that create my future. I have already started these practices since my coaching session and am happy to report I am feeling more peace than I have felt in a long time.

My mantra for this week is, I will always stand by my “self” and “I will never forsake my “self”

There are lots of changes that are going on within me. You all may not see it yet on the outside but there are more major shifts happening inside me since starting the show. As I continue to open doors for myself not just in a new career but possible love and romance there are some ups and some downs.

This week I have made some more progress making another connection and possibility on the career front. Our show this week was all about taking action. As you might know Max asked a question on this last show what are you afraid of? I blurted out dating and relationships not knowing I might have to actually have to step out and take action on this area of my life so soon as we have made the focus on my career thus far. Of course I had managed to fight my way thru the fear to take the first action steps to a new career but this was a whole other beast. So on my coaches prompting I signed up on some online dating sites. The idea was just to signal the Universe that I am open and ready for a new relationship possibilities. I did a lot of browsing and a few chats. I made a connection with someone and we had ongoing conversations. As it turns out after a few days of chats I discovered I was the victim of an internet scammer. I had no expectations but I had hopes and opened myself up to possibilities. Let's just say it was not a very nice experience. I have no future intentions of looking for dating, love, or relationships in an online setting. I think career will continue to be my focus. It's clear dating and love are not in the cards for me at this time.

I really don't know where any of these steps of action will lead to but none the less I am moving forward and that is what counts. I will continue to carry on....I'm sure many more adventures await me.