|The Positive Principle Show|
Mary Beth's blog
This week is our final show and I will not hesitate to say that it is completely bittersweet to see this journey coming to an end. In my audition video I said that I wanted to be a part of the show because I thought it would be an amazing experience. Let's just say it has been nothing short of that.
In my audition video I also stated that one of my biggest goals of doing the show was that I wanted to have more peace in my life. I am here to say that there has been a huge shift with me in the area of peace and I have come far in accomplishing that goal.
What do they say, when the student is willing the teachers will appear? They appeared and I was ready to be taught with new insights and valuable tools that would propel me in the direction of the goal of peace. Of course also in that willingness was the openness that I had to have to all the tools presented to me by the coaches. So how did I get there you ask? I worked the principles daily each week as they were given to us in a very thoughtful way. I did not fight the process. Did I have to get out of my own way and get out of some of my comfort zones? You bet!! If you want something bad enough you are going to have to get out of your comfort zones. The very first time I had to step out of one of those comfort zones was just sending in the audition video to begin with. That was HUGE for me. All I can say is I guess I was just ready!!
So, back to how I have been achieving the PEACE. After starting out with the willingness and being open minded I have achieved this peace by deeper self love, self care, gratitude, and letting go of my old stories completely. The biggest thing of all is that I have been practicing living in the MOMENT, not living in the past and not thinking and worrying about the future. Both of those things will completely rob you of any peace. That is the way I used to live, and that is why I never had any peace in my life.
Having this new PEACE in my life has greatly improved my work life quite a bit and that is one area of my life that has really shifted due to this new inner peace that I now have. I also have more clarity and I have learned about comparative contrast lists that can be used in any area of my life which can help in goal setting and creating a vision for my life. I also feel the peace has opened me up to being more intuitive and trusting my own intuition. I have also learned to infuse more LOVE in my life as well as really relishing and relying upon my connection to Source.
This has truly been a wonderful life changing experience for me and I am so incredibly grateful to have been chosen to participate in the show. Thank you to the coaches Max and Polly for your ongoing patience and support. To big sis Tricia for her valuable insights and the three other beautiful people who shared this experience with me. The journey for us all is not ending, it is just beginning...
This weeks principle is BEING!
noun be·ing \ˈbē(-i)ŋ\
1: a living thing
This week has been interesting, enlightening and challenging as I have worked on getting rid of my old stories and creating new ones. I have felt very raw emotionally this week and have had a fair amount of sadness and tears. Perhaps it is my Ego grieving the loss it is having that it is no longer going to be allowed to run my life. There is a new sheriff in town LOL! And, on a positive note this week there has also continued to be a huge shift internally towards PEACE.
I was able to string together a fair amount of days of peace but I have had a challenging week as a single mom of a teenager. He is going through a difficult time and is experiencing emotional ups and downs and has been lashing out in anger. The first major outburst I was able to maintain the peace but as the days have gone on it has been very difficult for me. It has however been an opportunity for me to practice and teach him some of the things I am learning in this journey. Lots of deep breaths, living in the moment, telling the negative stories to go away, focusing on gratitude, positive things, self -love and self-care. I hope that what I am doing for myself will teach him a better way to live too! I'm not going to lie it is exhausting work but it is what I have to do if I want my life to be a new story. I want to rid my life of all the old stories that no loner serve me and create new happy ones!
The other happenings this week have been dealing with those old stories. The biggest of the stories that continue to be a challenge are those of body image and self worth. I have been telling my EGO no thank you every time those stories rear their ugly head. I have been doing all things self-care whenever I can. I have been been thinking of positive things, but most importantly I have been practicing LIVING IN THE MOMENT and having PEACE IN THE MOMENT. I have been dreaming and creating new stories that I plan on attracting to my life.
This week if you were watching the show you would know that we switched coaches. We now have the opportunity to be coached in two different styles. Both coaches are great and have different ideas and skills to bring to the table to help us move forward in this journey and I can't say how grateful I am for this opportunity I have been given.
This weeks principle was learn and teach. Is it possible to learn and teach yourself together at the same time? I believe so!!! That is exactly what I have experienced this week. After last week and the online dating debacle I was not sure where to go from here in regards to dating and relationships. I have decided temporarily to set that aspect of my life aside for a bit and this week just focus on myself.
This week in my first coaching session with Max we discussed self love and cleaning up any underlining low vibrations surrounding self image and any lack of self love. I have had experiences in my past that have shaped my view of myself, men, dating and relationships in a very self-destructive light. I had created many stories with a lot of negative thoughts which effect me and my beliefs today. I have held onto certain perceptions and beliefs that have not served me well. I realized my EGO has been in charge and has literally tried to destroy me. Every positive good thought I have had about myself my EGO has echoed back something negative. It has been a vicious and endless battle with the EGO and I have not been able to overcome it. Obviously this has not only led to sadness, depression, disappointment and anger but more importantly it has effected my vibration and has kept me from moving forward in my life and attracting the things I want for my life. It has also robbed my of any peace and joy in my life. If you will remember these were two things I hoped to achieve in my life when I started this journey.
So what have I learned and taught myself this week? I have learned that those old stories and lies my EGO has fed my mind for many years can be erased and new stories can be created by ME– no EGO involved. I am the taskmaster of my mind, my thoughts and my actions. I learned that every time my EGO starts to put a thought in my head that is not in alignment with LOVE not to fight it or push against it but to just say “Thanks for sharing, I am going to love myself anyway.” And, I am going to remind myself that “ I love myself and I love my life” I learned that I can take every thought captive. I learned that life is only about living in the moment and I can create PEACE and HEAVEN in that moment by redirecting to LOVE. And in that present moment of PEACE and HEAVEN I am creating the many moments that create my future. I have already started these practices since my coaching session and am happy to report I am feeling more peace than I have felt in a long time.
My mantra for this week is, I will always stand by my “self” and “I will never forsake my “self”
There are lots of changes that are going on within me. You all may not see it yet on the outside but there are more major shifts happening inside me since starting the show. As I continue to open doors for myself not just in a new career but possible love and romance there are some ups and some downs.
This week I have made some more progress making another connection and possibility on the career front. Our show this week was all about taking action. As you might know Max asked a question on this last show what are you afraid of? I blurted out dating and relationships not knowing I might have to actually have to step out and take action on this area of my life so soon as we have made the focus on my career thus far. Of course I had managed to fight my way thru the fear to take the first action steps to a new career but this was a whole other beast. So on my coaches prompting I signed up on some online dating sites. The idea was just to signal the Universe that I am open and ready for a new relationship possibilities. I did a lot of browsing and a few chats. I made a connection with someone and we had ongoing conversations. As it turns out after a few days of chats I discovered I was the victim of an internet scammer. I had no expectations but I had hopes and opened myself up to possibilities. Let's just say it was not a very nice experience. I have no future intentions of looking for dating, love, or relationships in an online setting. I think career will continue to be my focus. It's clear dating and love are not in the cards for me at this time.
I really don't know where any of these steps of action will lead to but none the less I am moving forward and that is what counts. I will continue to carry on....I'm sure many more adventures await me.
This weeks positive principle is “All About LOVE”. It has been another great experience for me this week. Lots more realizations and steps forward in my love and acceptance of myself and my career journey.
With that said, let's talk about love. In particular self-love. A few weeks ago a friend posted on Facebook this question, “If you could say any two words to your 17 year old self what would they be?”. I said, “Love Yourself”. I feel there is nothing more important to realize. No one ever taught me the importance of loving myself. I believe loving yourself is critical to having a good self-esteem. We sometimes go through life with this way of thinking of how we “should” be physically and in every other way instead of loving and accepting ourselves unconditionally. Much of that thinking is filtered through the messages we get from the media. Our media is sending these messages everywhere you turn that we should look a certain way or have a certain status. These messages also set us up for always making comparisons with others in how we feel about ourselves which then creates thinking that we are never good enough or we don't measure up. I think this especially true for a lot of women.
One of the things I have created for myself this week is a daily love routine. I have begun to start and end each day with giving love to myself , love to my current and my future career, and sending love out to others as well. I have also added a daily mantra that Max suggested saying to myself out loud every morning and every night, I love myself, I love my life!
All in all the message of love was very personal to me and I am learning to love myself a little bit more everyday. I also believe that it is just as important to send love to others as well as situations in our life. In sending out love the Universe can't help but return that love back to us.
I want to first say how grateful I am to have been chosen to participate in the Positive Principle Show. The opportunity could have not come at a better time for me. I have to admit though that it was not something I would normally have ever considered doing in putting myself “out there.” I am a very private person and don't often share with many people what I am going through in my life. So this has been a big step out of a major comfort zone. Saying that, there is only growth when we are willing to step out of our comfort zones.
The one thing I took away from our first show that really struck an internal chord with me was the point of having a “VISION” for your life. Of course like everyone else I always have many dreams. I am a person who is always trying to better myself and grow as a person and am very goal oriented. I think I am currently at a point that I do not know exactly what I want for my life. Of course I want abundance, love and health, and a fulfilling career. What I want specifically career wise is probably the thing that I am most unclear about at the moment. I think that will probably be one of the main things I will be focusing on in this journey. I don't quite have that “vision” yet for that area of my life.
Stating that, it is only fitting that this week I am focusing on my career. I am exploring “what I don't want”, “what I would want”and “what I bring to the table”. It may seem easy to come up with these lists but it has been challenging. I only briefly looked at the “what I don't want” merely as a stepping stone to help identify what I do want in my life. I want to put the focus on what I want and what I have to offer.
I created a career affirmation for myself to attract what I want. “ I am taking the steps that are opening doors to a fabulous fulfilling, prosperous, exciting and successful career” I am the architect of my career and with the guidance of my wonderful coach Polly I am on my way!
All of the 4 Cast Members will be answering this classic 10 questions from Bernard Pivot (you may have seen it used on Inside the Actor's Studio) so you can get to know them just a little better... You might want to do them your self!
Here are Mary Beth's answers!
I am Mary Beth, Daughter, Mom, friend and widow. I have recently had some of the biggest life changes I have ever experienced. In December of 2013 after almost 15 years of marriage my husband and I decided to divorce. I was still living with him in July of 2014 when on a visit to the emergency room he was diagnosed with Stage 4 colon cancer. Then, in September, he also suffered a heart attack. He finally succumbed to the cancer and lost his battle on January 15th. I am now the single mom of a 13 year old son and am still recovering from this huge loss as he was my best friend. It has also been a huge loss for my son as well. Our world has been turned upside down and we are taking things one day at a time. As you might imagine this has pushed me further into really evaluating my life.
For a great amount of my life I feel I was unconscious and did not really truly know myself. We all struggle with that inner voice of criticisms and shoulds. My worst enemy has been myself. I have also suffered at times with depression. I finally had a breakthrough in my life and started to grow when I decided to open my mind up to new spiritual ideas and look within and start to really work on my stuff. I have spent the better part of the last 6 years doing the work and trying to grow and face all of the things that I really wanted to change that were just not working for me anymore. I have made a lot of progress but have not quite reached the point of having what I really want for myself and my life. I am looking forward to having a better body image, daily inner peace, and living life with more joy. I am so grateful to have been chosen to participate and share this new journey with you on the Positive Principle Show. I am excited to see all the good things that will unfold before me. Thank you in advance for your support.